Sometimes I can see myself getting in my own way, especially when it comes to me being happy. I don't want to do that anymore.

Right now I am so content. I want to appreciate it all. Everyone and every moment.

Who knew, I am so blessed. My heart is so happy these days and somehow everything's gonna fall into place.

You heard it here first folks :)

Is good :)

I keep my life pretty private from the man I spend time with. I do it out of protection obviously. Keeping my Guard up is something I am struggling with lately but I still do because I need to.

It's just another reason is also because no matter how "cool" people are with me being a mom, most of them aren't.

Why does it have to be a daunting factor? Why can't it be a fucking fabulous factor! My son is an incredible little boy who everyone falls in Love with first meet. Why can't it just be okay?

Regardless, I know that it is. Somehow with God I'm gonna figure this whole life things out. Some how.

House is coming along, bet I'll be done by may. Mommy would be so proud. Gah I miss her every single day.

Still here though, still letting out my light as much as I can. I want life, for some reason I get to have it, so I'm going to make the most of it. Some how.

Just another vent.